My mom is always asking me, “why don’t you interact with the family anymore?” well it’s pretty simple. Everytime i even attempt to try to speak to you or christal it just ends up in a arguement. Why am i going to keep putting effort into something that is your fault. I can ask a simple question and it will turn into something that had no intention of being there in the first place. Don’t tell me i need to interact more, you guys just need to learn to not start drama for once.
I hate how i’m just a natural hypocrit. I hate how people are fake in front of my face but I dont say anything. Then again I’m not the most up front person there is. I have trouble being real with myself and with others.
I could never really come to terms with certain things, especially as a kid. I could never be able to blame my corrupted attitude on my lack of sleep as a kid with all the bullshit that would go down at night. I ended up blaming a lot of things on myself, and i still do.
Sorry for all the random shit i’m talking about in this post, just gotta a lot of shit on my mind right now.
But anyways, i feel like so many people around me have changed for the worse, few for the better, but majority for the worse. I feel like they are constantly trying to put up this front, they are afraid of being “different”. They just keep tryin to keep up with this so called hype. I miss what those people used to be. I miss how real they were. They try too much to be all alike, but they just end up lookig really stupid. No one gives you guys the right to judge people the way you guys do.
We all live in different situations, if you guys are lucky, thrn at least be nicer to those who are less fortunate. You think your life is shit, you never worked a day in your life.
“Love is not something that you fall in and out of. Love is a choice, and you choose to love the people that you love. And that why it is so important that each of us choose to love ourselves first. To take care of yourself, to treat yourself with the same kind of compassion, forgiveness, and respect that you give to the people that you love the most in your life. Because you are with you along your journey every step of the way.”
You’d think I would finally be done But I still have my sun rise and set on you. Everyday it kills me As much as I want to show you I just can’t. I’m crazy for carrying it on this long Then again, I’m just crazy in general.